I Am Loved

God loves me!

That's what I said to Dave on the phone this morning. I've had a class this semester that has had a rather strange pace. Until Thursday of last week, my instructor only assigned a total of five assignments, each worth about 10 points. Because we needed to catch up, she posted seven new assignments--several of which were worth 50 to 100 points--with LOTS of readings. Needless to say, last Thursday evening, I had a nervous breakdown.

I knew this week would be extremely busy. What was even more strange was that I worked every day this week, which almost NEVER happens; in fact, I think this is only the third time I've worked the entire week. I wasn't complaining though. I pray every day that I will work (except Monday I did actually pray that I wouldn't get called), and I am thankful that I worked. But I did think it was odd that it happened the week I had a million and three things to do. To top it all off, I had something planned for almost every evening as well.

Surprisingly enough, after the breakdown I was fine. I remained calm and just got busy. I'm not usually good at relying on God and not getting stressed out, but this week it happened! God allowed me to have plently of time during the day while I was subbing to work on assignments. And I didn't even realize how much I had accomplished until today. Because my evenings were booked, I knew I would have to spend my entire Saturday working on homework. So that was the plan...

Until 8:45 this morning! I started on homework at 8:00 and finished at 8:45!! God is good!

While it all sounds rather silly, I am amazed at what He has done in my life this week. My lack of stress wasn't the only blessing. I have been on a spiritual high this week. (This spiritual high has actually last a few months to be honest, but this week has been extra good.) I have also felt so filled with God's love. Like mentioned in my very first post, my drives to work are great quiet times with God. I've prayed every morning that I will be filled with God's love so that in some supernatural way, it would reflect from me so that the students I worked with could feel it. For the first time ever, I actually liked all the kids I worked with! I worked with some crazy kids in a special ed class, smart aleck middle school kids with bad attitudes, poopy smelling preschoolers, and trouble makers in the library. And I left each day having had an amazing and uplifting day. I maintained a positive attitude, had a great amount of patience, and got along with all the students.

I didn't have any eye-opening experience this week. Nothing happened that was really out of the ordinary. But I hope to always remember this week and to remember that apart from God, I really believe I wouldn't have had the week I did. I wouldn't have experienced all the small blessings that came about. And in the end, I wouldn't have summed up the week's experiences by saying this: "God loves me!"